Letting go is freedom... for now at leastJun 9, 2020
Hey everyone. It has been almost two months since I posted last. I believe one of my last posts was about being in "survive" mode as opposed to "thrive" mode. I've definitely been surviving. The past few months at home have been tough, as I'm sure they have for most of you too. In many ways I've been forced to cut down to the bare minimum in order to survive. My self care is not quite where I would like it to be. I don't get to play the drums as much as I'd like.. hardly at all. But I only skipped one lesson. I'm still trying to progress. I haven't had as much time as I would like to work in the garden. But my wife took the kids for three hours on Sunday and I more or less caught up. So far everything looks good. I've made a concerted effort to start meditating on my own again over the last few weeks... with varied success.
Work is also a challenge. I have done zero marketing and basically only made time for my clients. Other than that... I'm not keeping up on my ADHD reading and webinars. And, as you know, I'm not posting here. I was very insistent when I started this blog that I didn't want to do the ADHD thing of posting for two months and then forgetting about the blog altogether. I'm proud to say that I've been very consistent over the years. But things change. With this unprecedented situation, I've had to adjust my expectations.
I think the key to my success (if you want to call it that,) is that I'm just not expecting to thrive. I'm more willing to let things go now than I ever have been before, which is nice. Years ago I would have beat myself up for not thriving and run myself into the ground. On the field I've lost a step... or two. But I like to think I've accrued some wisdom.
But you will note that I am posting today. I guess that means that I let go while still keeping my thoughts about getting back to normal on the back burner. I had a client end a little early today and thought to myself, I could bang out a blog post. My point is that most people I work with are worried about letting go of anything because they are afraid that they'll never pick those things back up. I'm her to tell you that that isn't the case necessarilly.
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Standard Disclaimer: In an effort to foil my own perfectionist tendencies, I do not edit my posts muh, if at all. Please excuse typos, mistakes, grammatical errors, or awkward phrasing. I focus on getting my content down. In my humble opinion, an imperfect post posted is infinitely better than a perfect post that goes unfinished.