I am happy to report that life has started to lighten up a little bit, finally, after 3 or 4 years of intense challenge. Not that it’s Sunshine rainbows and unicorns. But things are good. Most of that has to do with my kids being reasonably stable. Or at least feeling like there’s a path for them. I spent a lot of the 6 months previous not posting very often. And part of that was being completely overwhelmed by what was going on with the kids. Businesses also been going well. Which is a good thing. But it’s not so much that I didn’t have the time to bang out a quick blog post. It’s more that I didn’t have the bandwidth. I continued to schedule blog posts while I wait in the car for my son at dance class. But I stopped doing it. I just didn’t feel up to it.
but, as things have gotten better, and being the constantly introspective guy that I am, I realized that there’s more to why I’m not posting. So even now that things are better and I’ve got more bandwidth, I realize that I don’t have as much to say. I think when I logged in today it showed 467 posts. That is a lot of mostly unique ADHD content with a little bit of repetition, some intentional, some probably not intentional, and with some thoughts on other issues mixed in.
I’m certainly not saying I know everything about adhd. But I am saying that I know a lot and I’ve written a lot. It’s not that I don’t have any new ideas. I have some ideas that I save for my clients and don’t post on my blog I have a lot of ideas about co-occurring conditions. I’ve done a lot of research on mood disorders and pediatric bipolar knlately. Also, some of the ideas that I’m down to now are lengthy and more complicated and difficult to write about. So I feel it a crossroads.
I am a listener of wtf, Marc Marin’s podcast. He struggles to remember which famous people he’s talked to. How am I supposed to remember what I posted about on my blog on some Tuesday in 2012?
I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m going to do a combination of things. I’m going to mix in some thoughts on related issues like mood disorders and anxiety a little bit more. I’m going to be a little more brave about talking about pharmacology on the internet where it lives forever. And, I’m going to talk about add issues that I find relevant without worrying about whether or not I’ve talked about them before. I’m sure nobody’s going through my archive back 10 years. I’m sure my thoughts and ideas have developed over time and I can give better descriptions of what I’m talking about. And sometimes themes just seem to come up with my clients at given times and maybe that’s a message that other people are dealing with that stuff. So I won’t shy away from being… I don’t want to call it redundant. Let’s say, willing to review previous themes.
I post this because I think this is a good way for me to model positive behavior for other ADHDers. I kind of got stuck. I got a little overwhelmed. And coming out of a period of time when I was not at my best I had to do some self-introspection. The result was I made some changes to paradigm that I lived by for about a decade. I’m hopeful that this new course can invigorate me and get me back to posting every week like I did for many years. Of course, the proof is in the pudding. But I’m more excited about posting a blog entry to follow this one then I have been in months. I guess the takeaway I’d like you to have, among others, is to re-examine your systems when they stop working. No matter how great they are, life changes. And we have to adapt and change with it. That goes for big things and small things and everything in between.